Sunday, August 10, 2008

Wondering?

It just seems that my mind is full this morning. Making it difficult to rest and sleep. When ever this happens I start to wonder ...

Wonder
if there is someone that I should be praying for. Wonder how Misty is doing (HERE). Wonder if I should be up getting things off my"to do" list. Wonder if our life will settle into normal. Then this morning, I started to wonder how long this stage of waiting to sell and move will last. Wonder how I am going to plan a birthday party for Tally that doesn't scream "my life is too chaotic right now to do better than this". One of my biggest struggles about moving again is doing the bare minimum for birthdays and holidays.

Wonder if we will like a new town. Wonder if we will make friends easily. Wonder where we will find a homeschool group and if it will be a good fit for our family.

Wonder
how long we will have our life dominated by the whole moving process. (It was almost a year ago that I was feeling these same type of early morning, mind full, type of thoughts (HERE). Here I am doing it again. Trying to wrap my brain around moving again. Tired of having God ask us to do difficult things. Again, I am reminded to lay it at the Father's feet and just rest. Rest in knowing that He is in control and desires the very best for me.

The girls and I are preparing to go and visit Chuck next week. And truth be told, I think that the idea of this causes me stress. Chuck's parents just got here yesterday to stay here at our home while we are gone (a very thoughtful and generous thing). But traveling by myself on a little road trip is new to me on my own. And I am such a homebody, it is takes me out of my comfort zone to leave home on any kind of trip. I know we will have a good time and it is worth the effort it will take, it just feels like I have a lot of loose ends right now. Good thing I have blogging to help me sort out all my thoughts. I know the truth, but this morning, my feelings have me wondering.

12 comments:

Lee & Bev said...

I commend you for being willing to "come out" of your comfort zone. It seems that God takes us on a path that we are "ever learning and growing" (from our family mission statement). We trust this is a great time and that you all enjoy, learn and are blessed beyond measure. Thanks to G & M for "holding down the fort"

K-Sue said...

Wish we could hop in with you - you could just drop us somewhere in Georgia and pick us up on your way back. Maybe next time :) Maybe there won't need to be a "next time" :):):)

Sherry said...

Wish the girls were there to help Tally celebrate! We will make sure to send a special card. Your road trip sounds like an adventure to me...and some new letter boxing sites to hit!

Rachel said...

I wish I were there to help you. You are such an amazing person Cris. Lifting you in prayer...

Melissa said...

I totally get this post after completing our 3rd move in 3 years. It's rough!

Kara said...

I have been stretched several times this summer myself. I don't like it at all. It has shown me that with the Lord I'm quite capable of accomplishing what he has for me. It seems like another step of growth in my life. I just want to encourage you that all will work out just fine.

Susan said...

Hang in there sister. Praying for safe travels. I am sure it is hard traveling on your own though...extra stressful. Praying for grace and strength as you WONDER about your future move. Thanks for sharing your struggles. I hear you about your struggles with moving...sigh!

Ginny said...

Boy do I do a lot of wondering too! I hope you have a great trip. I understand your feelings about it though- I am a total homebody as well.

steffany said...

Don't you love those wondering thoughts?

Have a great road trip.

Annie said...

I know what you mean about that feeling of stress. I took the kids on an overnight trip to an amusement park last week, and the day before, I was really wishing I could cancel the whole thing; I just wanted to STAY HOME. But I got (and you will get) over that and have a nice time...once you get started. I think it the transitions that are so hard.

chewhi said...

we all go through these times and like you said... you know the truth, and I'm sure you keep returning to that. But it's certainly so hard not to think! we have to think! Maybe start thinking of this period as a faith/trust builder?

Wife to the Rockstar said...

I am a homebody too. Anything like that would stress me out.

I am sorry. I can only imagine how hard this time has been on all of you. I think of you often and pray for you. You guys have had a lot of changes.