I have to say the past week hasn't been the easiest week emotionally. And I hesitate to even say anything because to imply that we are kind of down, sends everyone my way to tell me it could be worse. (Yes, I know it could be worse, but that doesn't take away from the hard times we are having). I even feel guilty, because we have friends that are going through much harder things. We have been praying fervently for so many things. And waiting on God to answer, to hear our prayers.
I have been brought back to some verses about waiting on God. Clinging to the verses in Isiah 40 about waiting on the Lord and gaining strength.
28Do you not know? Have you not heard?
The Everlasting God, the LORD, the Creator of the ends of the earth
Does not become weary or tired
His understanding is inscrutable.
29He gives strength to the weary,
And to him who lacks might He increases power.
30Though youths grow weary and tired,
And vigorous young men stumble badly,
31Yet those who wait for the LORD
Will gain new strength;
They will mount up with wings like eagles,
They will run and not get tired,
They will walk and not become weary.
The reality is, it's been 5 months of not having Chuck here. This weekend was his birthday and it was hard to be away and not together to celebrate. The closer we get into fall, the more I think the holidays are going to be hard. We have been praying for this house to sell and I don't want to give up hope. We have also been praying for Misty and a healing. She is currently in a coma and on life support.
I know the truth. I know that we serve a living GOD who does hear our prayers. Who does listen. I know that I desire His will and timing and not my own. I also know that by stepping out on faith, we are a target for the enemy and that God is refining us. Giving us the opportunity to grow and become more Christlike.
Like I said, I know the truth. It has just been a hard week emotionally. Sometimes the feelings need a little tending to.