Heavy Heart

For a variety of reasons I have had such a heavy heart today. I am sure by now you all have heard of the tragic death of Steven Curtis Chapman's daughter. I read about it early this morning and it has hung with me all day. I am lifting up that family and especially their son, in prayer today.

I think my heavy heart started last night when both girls were crying and missing daddy. We had a very busy day and I wonder if that had to do with the evening tears. I want to comfort them and care for their feelings but at the same time, my mind keeps drifting to other families that are also going through difficult times. Even the perspective of other's pain, doesn't take away our current hurt.

We have been calling out to God, seeking His mercies on our family. I know the truth that God hears our prayers and the He cares for our every need. But...right now...my head knows the truth but my heart feels the pain. The unknown time period that we will be in this holding pattern is so hard. It has official been a month that our home is on the market and no offers yet. In fact only 2 lookers (plus an open house). Chuck has been gone about 2 weeks. We expect a good weekend with him home and we went ahead and got another ticket for him to come home again in another 2 weeks. All this adds up to trying to really hard to hang onto hope. Hoping for the best. Staying positive. Choosing happiness. Focusing on all the good in our life and not the bad. (OK, that was the little pep talk that I needed to give myself).

I hate this heavy feeling on my heart. Even to the point of chest pains and hard time breathing. The weather here has changed to full on humidity and I know that always takes a little getting used to. Today, I take it as a reminder to lift up these families that are dealing with DEEP hurt.